day 1

fail.

first thing in the morning i contacted john. he responded nicely. he doesn't ever initiate the contact though. what does that mean? still no answer to yesterday's request. quite certain that the answer is still "no," heartbreakingly so. our relationship was like water, until it is gone, you never really know how much you need it. being with john, him being mine, me being his, seems like it was so long ago. i want it to be a reality again. how do i move on? somebody please tell me, how do i move on?