day 3

(which is actually day 2, but who's counting?)

well it's really early still, but so far so good. after the little email interchange yesterday i made no contact for the remainder of the day. i guess i should be happy about that, that i did it, but he did not contact me either, that fact is harder than anything to swallow. he does not want to talk to me, he is not interested.

so day 3 begins, harder than yesterday and not a likelihood that i'll hear from him today. it is so hard to digest that he is not interested in what i am doing, that he does not want an us anymore, he wants just him and to find someone else, that he does not want to be a part of it anymore, that he does not want me anymore.

what if this 30 days is just a sham and he ends up living in utter happiness with someone else? and i am just a foolish, foolish girl for hoping and believing it will work.

sad, today, and lost. sad and lost.